Catastrophy and the Cure

So obviously today's big news story is that some graduate student at virgina tech decided to shoot something like 32 people beforing ending his own life, in what was the single largest shooting spree in American history outside of a war setting. I don't really know what to say about it. It's certainly a horrific thought that 32 of my peers were shot for no apparent reason other than one man's pain and loathing. I also feel bad for the shooter. Maybe if we all decided to show a little more love to other people something like this can be adverted. I am definetly not saying this was anyway justified, but I do feel that these types of shootings are, to a certain extent, preventable. I suppose once we learn the hows and whys things will become clearer.

Part of me is also happier to be alive. I suppose it does sort of show that life isn't something to be taken for granted, and that, no matter how my next test turns out, I will still be alive.

I woke up this morning with a bit of a fever and totally out of energy. Hopefully a good nights sleep tonight helps me feel better on the morrow.

Apparently my house's basement has a bit of water seeping into the basement from all the rain in the past day or two. Certainly harsh weather we had there. Hopefully things will get warmer soon and not as cold and damp. I feel like I'm living in Ireland with all this rain and cold.

Go To Sleep (lil man being erased)

so yeah. 3am and I am awake because of tree sex clogging my nose and making it run. I am dead tired and feeling wonderful...

So what have I been thinking about, you ask? Well, you see, I was thinking [as usual] about how unbalanced the world is. I try to do nice things for people when I can. Sometimes, I even go out of my way if I am asked. I like to think I'm a reasonable guy. I don't go out of my way to intentionally hurt anyone. But I've been wondering, if I am a nice guy, then how come I'm not more liked? I mean, I do understand I'm a bit odd in my musical tastes and general attitude toward life, but... I don't know. I thought I'd share.

back to sneezing.

Creep

So this weekend... yeah. weekend. Allergies started killing me today. The fact that I have no real tissues, only napkins, doesn't make my nose feel any better. Couple that with a rather sour mood that seemed to come with the rain doesn't help.

The fact that the "title" of my blogs are songs are no coincidence. I've got no other use for the title, so I might as well try to get across my mood. I'll try to make it more plesant from time to time.

I disappear

Yeah. Sorry to disappoint my many (>.>) readers out there. I suppose I just kind of got disheartened a little bit. Some things this week were okay, other things are just really starting to wear on me. Such as my inate ability to be awkward in most all social situations. And my struggles to maintain a decent grade. I need another break. Alas, no rest for me. Onward, to elevators that still smell of consumerism. Onward, to the front of the building where we can argue over taxies. Onward to forget that we forgot. I'm going to bed. I get to go to the world trade center tomorrow to look at the new stuff they are building. Ungodly early for a friday morning. I'll probably end up with 4 hours of sleep. I wish I could make it all go away.

I guess today was sort of....

Unfulfiling I suppose? I don't know. I didn't really solve any of my problems. Things just kind of compounded and it just became fustrating. I felt like I had one million words to say, yet I couldn't say them. "The tactics were never hatched, the plans were never mapped, and we all learned not to believe." It put me in a sort of disagreeable mood. I suppose when things start fustrating me I start venting on what I percieve to be wrong about our culture. Maybe hopefully one day I'll inspire someone to fight for something they believe in, instead of just sitting and waiting and hoping. Maybemyself one day. Imagine the view.

Today was rescued by my new cell phone, which sort of brings me back into contact with people. I ended up getting some food, engauging in a debate about the positive aspects of easter/passover, playing mario kart, and finding out who cared enough to listen to my aural crapping. So, I guess I sort of found out who has my back, and who just wants my serrogate attention but hit the abandon button when someone (alledgedly) more important comes along. tomorrow is saturday, and things seem to be ok. sunday is a nice day with my family. monday is going to be put aside for some work and travel to school. tuesday probably the same.

blehhh

Oi. I've been tired lately. A test and a quiz in the last two days before my vacation. Forever a good time. Today felt empty. I am going to bed.

So many things.

"You must know so many things" my calculus teacher likes to say. So many things have been on my mind recently, and most of them have been bugging me. The weekend wasn't too bad overall, the 4 days upcoming have some minor annoyances, but... I look forward to 4 days off and some time to collect myself.